Healthy lifestyle

Have been trying to live a healthy lifestyle for months

From swimming, going to gym, running, taking various fruits, and even climbing mountain for once. 

With my aim to slim down and definitely a healthier body! 

Just started a short-running schedule yesterday
Totally a good idea to sweat and
enjoy the slightly-stronger-than-breeze yet slightly-lighter-than-wind
blowssssss on your face!

Sweating face!

Well, was in the middle of rushing assignment
Pen-off
Love

After a long time

This is like WOW, I'm blogging again?

Looking at the ex-post, it was more than ONE YEAR ago.

Why am I here again then, huh?

All I can tell is I am a remembering person, extremely! 

And I'm random, I'm spontaneous

I do whatever I feel like

How's life?

Looking back to all those ex-posts is like a flash back 

I've been growing much 

Seeing more cruelty and feasibly facts in life 

Well, not so bad

People say No Pain, No Gain.

May be I'd just come over here and write

Like a diary 

Like a anytime flash back place to the future me!! 

0718

Haven't blogged for quite a long time but I'm here today
It actually nothing much or worth to blog as my life recently is just fulled of assignment, test, revision and work
NO entertainment at all, sigh =W=
Final exam of my foundation program will be held on 27th, 28th and 29th
Within 4 subjects, the most terrible and horrible subject is still the same from semester 1, that's ECONOMIC
Hey ms.econ, why are you so fucking difficult harrr?
I do not understand you at all, indeed, even I understand I can't do the exercise also.
Pray hard to pass you in my final, once you're passed, then BYE-BYE. no more econ in my life ! muahaha!

Found that I haven't uploaded my new photo here. I had cut my long hair
hmm.... My friends wondered and shocked that I cut it because as they knew I loved my long hair so much
Not saying that I don't like my long hair but just wanna try something new
and
When my hair is cut, I wish something from my heart is gone too

I have grown too many weights recently 

I am so fat and fat and fat ! wtf ! 

Gonna start dancing again after my exam,

wish I will be losing some weights at that time

I wanna go for jogging after exam, anyone that can accompany me? 

hmm..

I wanna go for movies, anyone that can accompany me?

hmm...

I wanna go Kampar to visit my love, should plan it actually because I miss her so much

I wanna go Melaka for FOOD ! I want mile-crepe cake, satay celuk and chicken ball rice ! How to lose weights with all my mind craving for food? Eowww ! Forgot to say, I want korean food as well

Feel like going to Sukiya with someone so badly but then I know I can't, okay, stop thinking ! Ishhh ! 

I miss this crazy gang immensely, haven't met up for quite long.. sigh 

What else to blog? No? Pen-off then.

Have to take a nap right now as after then only I can study hard hard in the darkly night. Burn the midnight oil please Lee Hui Ling

: I always want a hectic life without you popping out in my mind. 

 Working hard on this, yet, far away still.

--bye-- 

醉了吗？

我的中文不好，语法实在差强人意

曾经深爱着的英文 随着越渐忙碌的生活也被抛于脑后了

不再执着于那该死的Britain grammer

甚至把曾经滚瓜烂熟的vocabularies都遗忘了

Form 5 那年真的很努力的

可人 总会改变吧？

接触这社会越久的时间你会发现 人们口中那残酷的社会其实比想象中更复杂

善变的脸孔 鄙视的态度 懦弱的表现 带刺的话语 职位的差别

你除了接受还能怎么样？

接受了就会习惯 习惯了就不会再难过

没有掉过任何一滴眼泪 可是心累了 所以当脆弱的心灵再次受到一丁点的伤害

眼泪就自然而然的滑落 在疲惫的脸孔划下一道道隐形的伤痕

或许是坚强久了 所以容易掉泪

亦或许 因为感触多了

偶尔的偶尔 在很清醒的状况下 真的觉得自己很愚昧

愚昧的爱 愚昧的笑 

笑声越大 其实越心虚，心寒，心痛

冰啤酒 可以麻木难过的心情，可以睡得很安稳

所以每当难过时 总会第一时间想起喝酒这事儿

我猜 应该上瘾了吧

实在贪恋那种感觉

把不开心的烦恼的   都灌醉 然后倒头大睡真的会很爽 很爽

头慢慢的 好沉重 好沉重。。。

今晚会睡得很安稳 不会再半夜突然醒来然后睁着眼晴不睡了

Tired

老爸说我是很笨的一个人 因为我不懂得珍惜生命里最珍贵的东西

猜猜看 那是什麽 

不是亲情 不是金钱 更不是工作

而是健康

好吧 我承认我最近确实很疯

可是当一个人还年轻时不多付出一点

又怎么能在竞争激烈的社会胜出？

更何况我必须花别人不必花的花费

每当我想起自己让爸爸妈妈辛辛苦苦赚的钱这样付出去时

那是多大的一个羞辱 多大的心酸

我妈今年42 我爸今年47

我还有多少的时间能够浪费？ 没多少

我的梦 离我还有好远好远

每当自己不争气病倒时 真的觉得自己好没用

每当自己不争气流泪时 真的觉得自己好没用

每当这时候 脑海里都想起了那个人

那个我无时无刻都在惦念着的人

我需要那个人的一句慰问 一句加油， 那就够了。

24-04-12

逐渐繁重的课业快让我喘不过气来

怎麽自己的脚步比别人慢那麽多

别说因为工作忙碌 这不过是个烂借口

自从上了college 考试考得最烂的一次 

别为自己找任何借口 反正这就是懒惰的后果

还是因为花太多时间在睡眠?

我不得不承认自己老了 再也无法像以前那样熬夜

只要一个晚上不睡我可以病倒 真是他妈的差劲

5个月了吧 那个人的出现

原本就被他牵引着我的情绪

总是记挂着他是否有吃饱睡好

现在可好了

竟然把话说一半转身走掉

多多的牵挂变得更多更多

曾经多少次喊着希望时间倒流

曾经多少次盘算着一切从头

可当这一切真的来临

是否还能像初时那般潇洒

不 我不能。

不舍不舍我就是不舍得

我已经一头栽进这坑 没有回头的路

即使一切回到原始

我的心已变了 因为里面多了一个人

这个人是你。你感受到了吗？

Be Tough

如果人类活着可以一直保持着开心与开朗的心情 那该有多好？
如果我像以前那样 一个人坚强的 没有太多感情 不掉泪不难过 那该多好？
委屈 不过是那麽一瞬间的难过 怎麽我还没习惯 怎麽忍耐不能被继续
容忍了包容了宽待了顾虑了
我照顾他人的感受 谁人照顾我的感受？
或许早就不该不舍 该学会狠心
人最软弱的一面，就是不舍得
提醒自己别不舍 别心软
我要坚强的走下去 我要习惯一个人 我要加油

某人，我好想你。真的很鬼死想念你。

Mature?

I have worked in this sucking cruel society for more than one year
so please don't expect me to be too silly，naive and stupid
I know what did you say what did you tell behind me
Please don't always show me your fucking stupid arrogant face
I don't care anymore I don't need your help
I don't want to lose my self-esteem
I know what I am doing
But
A very big thank to you.
I learnt to be tolerant. I learnt to be stronger.
Don't hate. Don't blame. Don't depress.
It's life.
It's how I am going to grow more mature and older.

I say :
If you trust me, you don't need my explanation ;
If you don't, it is just a wastage of time to explain.
I say :
Don't even look back. I want to go, I must.
Just let all the things go back to the origin.

And you,
a simple but complicate feeling
I don't know I should thank you or angry with you
Anyway, just
THANKS for treating me good, THANKS for treating me bad as well
at least I know I have grown and learnt.

Tuesday

Originally I had to work after class today but too bad my pc was not in function thus my work arrangement has been cancelled. It might be good to me actually because my gastric was so so so worse today.
I couldn't eat although I felt hungry and you know what, I had already taken medicine but it didn't help.

I knew I was just so stress but what did I stress for? I seriously didn't know, no jokes !!

Wanna do my course work right now, it's 6.30 in the morning.

Caffeine makes me energetic and my brain is function very well at the moment.
Factual essay with 1500 words, I am coming
I wrote 77 words yesterday night, wish to write more today.

Honestly, I want to write some words to you but I found that I have nothing to say.
I have already got used to the sadness. You know what, I hate it
My feeling My mood are all according to what you do what you respond what you say and what you write !
I know, I will eventually let you go. The day is coming, but is it still far away from me? Yea,  exactly.

Okay, pen-off.
No more gastric please
----bye----

0304

我其实不笨 只是你把我想得太单纯 我并不是不懂 很多时候 我只是不想说 我从来没有过问你的任何私事 一切一切是你主动告诉我 而不是我追问

从认识你开始 我就陷进这个坑 无法自拔 我后悔 我懊恼
可不可以让我把记忆都丢掉 然后从头再来过 就当作没有认识过你
我讨厌就算看见你很多很多的缺点我还是觉得你很完美
我讨厌自己心疼你却不懂得心疼自己 想个白痴那样只想到你
你说痛 你懂不懂我急得都就快发疯了 你还把我推出去
可不可以不要把我对你的好当作理所当然 你如果稍微注意一点就能够感受到 可惜你从不曾用心留意

我说 时间始终不可以倒流
我说 我总会好起来
我说 迟早我会还这张脸一堆笑容

可不可以 有那么一秒钟 我想起你的时候 你也想起我 没有任何理由 纯粹想起了我 想念我?